xoxo,
you know you love me

Okay , shall say about how i feel now, totally shag to the max i can say. You gt girlfriend already that`s the fact. Some more is a secondary school student? Probably a cadet too. You told me , you won`t date a cadet. You even emphasize lots and lots of time. Well, maybe when you told me you didn`t think you will do it. Your words sometimes really cannot be trust, right? . Crying at one corner , knowing you are in a relationship and thinking that you have lied to me? Really makes my heart breaks. I can`t do anything as well? I guess i am the only foolish one waiting for you for 8 months and more? Worried for your stuffs , everything. I know i don`t have to do so, but i just simply can`t control. If i can control, I most probably won`t choose to even like you? Last time, i hear from some friends about you , not a good person or so? The fact that i trusted you. haha, thinking back, why should i trust you? I really should not be a person so devoted right? It is stupid being so devoted to someone who does not love you at all. Oh please , how foolish am i? I promised my friend and you that I won`t do something foolish ever again. I promised means promised. But just , everyday not having the mood to do anything. I tried venting out all my sadness and angriness by running , doing all the house chores. I tried really very hard not to think about you, yr relationship status. However, I simply can`t do it. Friends tried to console me , i just couldn't control my tears , my sadness. Next week , i guess it will be the last time seeing you. I hope i can forget you really really very soon. I don`t wish to be another 3 years or even more. I know is seriously foolish. I have to stop all such childish act real soon. Tears , please stop flowing down my cheeks because of him. I really need to stop stop stop.

I wish you and your current girlfriend last long. No quarrels, no fights. May you have a great future ahead.

Love, Geraldine

xoxo,
you know you love me